It’s Time To Build
I have written 8 blogs since COVID-19 and the murders of George Floyd, Breonna Taylor and Ahmaud Arbery. I find writing very therapeutic and it helps me process some very intense emotions. I’ve had a few sleepless nights and anxious mornings but I know God is always faithful and sovereign and this too shall pass. Also I write to help someone else process what they’re going through.
This morning after my prayer and meditation time. After I read my Bible plan and checked the box and before I showered and dressed, Holy Spirit nudged me and said, “you’re not through”.
I went back to my prayer corner and this scripture:
(Ephesians 4:26) “Be angry and do not sin. Don’t let the sun go down on your anger” came to mind.
It’s a very common scripture and I’ve used it many times especially in these times of unrest, usually for someone else.
Then Holy Spirit convicted me and said, “You have let too many suns go down on your anger. It’s time for repentance, you’ve sinned”.
That stunned me because I think I’m a pretty even tempered, mellow, humorous individual. I thought I had dealt with my anger issues, then I had to be honest with God and myself.
There is plenty of anger on the inside of me that the murder of George Floyd exposed. Anger that I thought was buried. Anger that I learned to mask with a joke. Anger that I worshipped God and preached over. Anger that was passed down to me as a generational inheritance. Anger that could have contributed to borderline hypertension and cancer. Anger that fed my addictions, hurts and hangups. Anger that ruined a couple of marriages.
Now can I list reasons for my anger...a resounding yes! There are more reasons than I care to even write about because that breathes life back into them. And it makes me a victim instead of the victor/conqueror God empowered and called me to be.
So what am I saying? I have to speak the truth in love even though that makes some folk uncomfortable. That truth can be spoken through a bullhorn, in a pulpit, in a one on one mentoring session with a fifth grader, with someone struggling with addictions or maybe even convicted of murder. To not speak the truth is sin!
But speaking the truth in love, let us grow in every way into Him who is the head — Christ.
Finally God told me to build! Yes build...relationships, character, ministries, hope, businesses, reconciliation, young lives, peace...BUILD!